Day Thirteen to Fifteen
Saturday. I was supposed to have the weekend to myself but my ex texted me yesterday asking what time I was getting her…. so SURPRISE he actually made plans and messed up and instead of changing his plans to hold up what he had told me, he just dumped her on me. I was fine with it because I like when I have my kid and want her all the time, but I added it to the list of evidence for court. It just shows he doesn’t choose her first, even though he only saw her two days out of the last 14 and his girlfriend babysat while he worked. (Thanks H, appreciate you and everything you do to make sure Cobie is taken care of over there.. sorry we won’t get to know each other bc he keeps your identity a secret…..) but to be fair, she deserves to know who she is dating and he knows I would tell her anything she wanted to know about why we are not together and it is not a good story for him because it shows his truth and he holds that truth tight to his chest..
So we went and got C and tried to go get Bob Evans but C wasn’t having it so we ordered it on door dash.
I started to get a fever and feel like crap so thankfully, my husband let me rest some and by Sunday evening I was feeling better. We had a very low-key Easter weekend, but C loved her basket full of Trolls activities, candy and playdoh.
I am dying to get back to work, after Cobe’s illness last week which kept me from work, and this spring break week… I am in need of some income and some time working out. I get to teach yoga this week on Thursday again, but I have not had the chance to even run my whole sequence yet bc the only time I tried both kids needed me and i got 8 minutes in before having to scrap the whole thing. #momlife BUT the play list is ready and it is fire. Y2K style.
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2Nv9dnG374UbXRZPjARuHc?si=bb6fb213448d46a0
Sunday we ordered Popeyes chicken for dinner.. I really need to get my groove back on cooking. I swear it’s like my executive function died when C-PTSD took over my life this past year. I struggle to get the energy to make a list, let alone shop in a sensical manner and then actually stick to the plan. I am very ready to go back to work and make some money, being off unexpectedly always makes me super anxious. Money has always been a trigger for my old ways of thinking and sometimes I feel like all the work I did to fix that scarcity mindset has reverted, but I guess loosing your home and business investment to your ex really can get those old wounds acting up… yikes. Grateful for where I am though, and for how much I love my job.
Monday was just another Mommy & Cobes day.. we did chalk, playdoh from her easter basket, colored in the hello kitty coloring book (and then she cut it into tiny pieces…. her fave.. lol) Just a good day and I did my steam sauna and cold plunge today and slept LIKE AN ANGEL. Going to try and stick with that routine as much as I can.
